Burdens of Rape

How does one preach about making things right when you don't even have the courage to speak up for yourself or help those that need help. I've seen and heard of many cases of rape around me and because the question, "what would people say?", always arises, most folks I know would just shove it down the drain and it was never spoken about. I guess I did too.

Think of how bad it must be to be raped by someone that was really close to you, like an uncle, cousin, step-mom, classmate or your step-brother. . Think of how heavy it must be to carry that burden because all this time you thought these were the people that cared about you and then they do that to you. You feel ashamed, you feel like you are the reason it happened, you feel it's your fault so you end up shooting down the idea of mentioning it to somebody because it would make this really 'nice' person seem bad and you would be the reason that they suddenly became bad.

Imagine living with yourself as a young girl or boy that had been raped over and over again until you feel like you deserved it all along. Like that's what you are worth because of all the bad things you have ever done. Just imagine feeling scared every time you are around these people that are supposed to protect you because they took away your innocence, raped you when you didn't even know how to spell your name. That must be awful right?

How does one deal with that? Can you visualize how hard it must be to hide such a secret for so many years and never even face it because you just can't. Even during the worst meltdowns, you choose not to think about it because it tears you apart. After all, you've made yourself believe that it was your fault. You allowed it and that's why speaking up would be wrong. Not to mention when the society suddenly stands in uproars against rape and you hide in your shell because you don't want anything to do with that, though you never wish that anybody else would go through that.

I wish I could be the voice to the thousands of woman and girls, and boys that have been raped and have kept quiet because they live in a society that would see it as an embarrassment. I wish I could speak up for everyone that's had their virginity taken away from them at a very young age because whoever raped them never thought that they would one day grow up and decide when they actually wanted to have sex, when they wanted to do whatever they felt they wanted to. Let me be your voice, to whoever that feels like being raped was ever their fault.

You are not alone<3

hearts, Queen

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