Dear 25 Year Old Me

Hey, how are you? I bet you have grown a lot now and still have not gotten any taller, have you? I am doing okay under the circumstances and would like to talk to you about a few things that I have been thinking about.

I'm stuck right now and I know that if I don't get out of this situation soon, you'll look back and hate yourself for not doing anything, that's why I am writing this. So that it can sort of inspire me to get up and do something.

I have been worried and my anxiety been kicking in too, I am not really good at handling most situations and panic is always my first response but I hope that you, Queen, will know better. Panic is not the best first reaction, trust me.

You know how much I love writing and how I always talk about publishing a book one day? Well, that thought has come back now, stronger than ever and all I can think of is writing but whenever I do that, my mind seems to come to a standstill and I keep telling myself how much I suck at this.

Look, what I'm trying to say is that do not give up on your writing, I will try and keep this passion burning for the both of us and I hope that when your turn comes, you too will keep pushing. It's something that requires commitment and lately I have not been the best person for stuff like that but I really hope that you keep pushing, striving, even if it seems like nobody is ever going to notice our work.

Another thing, guide your heart, don't jump recklessly into casual flings and relationships that are really pointless. I must say I'm glad I got us through that so now you take precaution and work on yourself, focus on building a life for yourself, for us. Right now I know for a fact that I don't want to have kids and I hope that you won't come around and change your mind, that decision is for the best, I know.

To top it all up, I'm suffering, Queen, and I don't want you to suffer like this when its your turn. I want you to be able to trust yourself, know that you can achieve whatever you set your mind to. I'm sorry if I am not laying a very strong foundation for that right now but as I have said with most things, I will really try and fix that, I promise.

I don't want you to live like this, I don't want you to be insecure and most importantly I want you to know that you can trust yourself. Believe me. I trusted me and made some of the best decisions, I wish that trust could extend to other areas of my life.

I have so much more I want to say to you, but that would then be a very long letter. I'm excited to meet you, be you and I can't wait to experience the best time of my life yet, thanks to the good decisions and behavior that I will hopefully carry out now.

P.S 20 Year Old Me

xxx