The Best of Me
I've spent a good hour and a half crying my eyes out. It's weird how my tears love to be all over the place, like they can't wait to get out of my eyes and body because I suffocate them or something. The only difference today is that the lucky ones got out today, tears of hope and love and inspiration. Tears that believe in a brighter tomorrow and tears that believe in something so beautiful... tears of happiness.
You know those scenes in soapies when a character says they are going to watch a romantic film and then after a while they sit infront of the television and cry? That's a classic, they recently pulled it off in 7de Laan thats why I remember it so well. Oh well, that was me about ten minutes ago, crying my eyes out because I fell inlove with this film I was watching, and those kind of endings always break my heart. Makes me cry, which reminds me that maybe I am a hopeless romantic and I believe in people being happy together. I believe in finding somebody that will love you, not somebody that will support you, because that you have to figure out on your own. Otherwise if you lose one, you lose all. That just sounds sad and silly to me.
Anyway...
If you want to feel inspired, or just cry for a valid reason, watch The Best of Me (2014), you might just fall inlove. If you're not into that, go on YouTube and watch STEM videos. That works too, just don't make me feel bad for spending my time watching romantic films when I have a test in 16 hours. That's totally fine, I'll try and read something later and get a grade that I won't be happy about then promsise myself to start studying earlier next time but fail because the cycle just repeats.
I'm glad the film inspired me to write, it's been a while. I hope you guys have been good under the circumstances. I've been trying to cope myself as well. In August it will be two years since I last saw my family and friends back home in Namibia, lately I've been feeling sad for some reason and then I realised that I was missing home. I still am. At this point I don't know when I will be home again, its hard to say especially with COVID-19, but I am really praying that things get better.
We have the midnight sun now, it's insane and it's an amazing thing to witness, sad that sometimes I hardly notice it because I'm so caught up in school work and life itself. It's wild having the sun up in the middle of the night.
Some days, to make me feel better about my life, I leave the curtains open so that light keeps pouring in and it feels like daylight, when really its ten in the evening and I need to go to bed, or study for a test. I feel like my hands are typing, my brain's not doing anything thats why this whole post feels like it's missing something. If anybody asks, it was my fingers!
Only one month before the summer break! I'm chilled, wanted to say super excicted but I will be working and doing research (school work) either way so there is not much to go crazy about. I have a two week's holiday before I start the job, so I look forward to that too. More details in a later post.
There's one thing I look forward to this year, one big thing that I have wished for Christmas last year as well and I have my entire body crossed that it will work out well. I will be the happiest girl on this planet if it's a go. I look forward to sharing it with you sometime, it's gonna be awesome.
I forgot to mention that I wrote an article in the local newspaper, in Norwegian. It was insane! Scariest thing I have done in a while but I got such welcoming and kind messages that comforted me. People up here are really nice, its crazy. It wasn't the same as writing in English though, it will take more than a year and four months to write properly, but I am glad I got started.
For now I have about four internal assessments I have to work on and the big research paper. There's more, but I don't wanna complain, what is the point?
Hope you guys are having a good one and taking care of yourselves. Take walks, talk to a friend about things and drink loads of water. You got this, but not while you are dehydrated.
Lots of love
Queen
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