The Modelling Cycle*
“Letters to Myself” “Seasonal Moods” “Notes from the Quiet” “Field Notes from the Self”
"she used to be quiet, but was nice"
"she was happy"
"she was smart"
"She was a brave girl"
"she was so kind"
"she was the sweetest"
"21 year old hangs herself"
"no suicide note found"
"close friends say everything was normal"
"teachers were worried but knew she'd be okay"
"parents hadn't seen her for two years"
"they are devastated"
"please speak up if you need help"
"check up on each other"
"suicide helpline"
"you are not alone"
By Q.R Urikhos
* I wrote this during the math lessons while we were just starting a new chapter, The Modelling Cycle. I was supposed to be taking notes after the heading, but my pen just flowed. I realised it made sense because modelling in mathematics is a representation of something right, of what could be or has been. This is an example/model if you may, of all the headlines I've read with someone taking their life and the usual pattern these texts have. No, I'm okay. Its been a rough couple of weeks, but I'm okay. I just need to get my shit together like everyone else, and I'm not giving up soon.
Love
Queen