When A Lonely Girl...
When a lonely girl falls in love, she forgets about all the failed relationships she's heard from her friends when she was in grade 10. She forgets about failed love stories like A Walk To Remember and A Fall From Grace. In fact, she suddenly focuses more on fairy tales like Cinderella because she wants to have that too, she dreams about it. Alas, she has no idea that she might not be that lucky and that it might not have been true love at first sight after all.
It's kind of funny how she wants to understand love and everything about it when she can't even really understand herself. How she longs to love and be loved in return when the only image of love she has in her mind is that that has been portrayed to her on television(which is not always true and might have given her false hope). She doesn't understand that feelings change and that a few years from now, what was true about them might have completely changed. Like I read on some website that, "out of all emotions in the spectrum, love is the most potent and mysterious".
When a lonely girl falls in love, this one person becomes her world and she worships them although she would never admit that she is. She acts all tough and tells her friends that she has not gone 'all in' with the person she's dating while she has given away her heart and prays each night that this person would not disappoint her. She keeps hearing about failed relationships but chooses to block them out because she wants to believe that what she has is special, that it will last. In some cases it is true, some lonely girls fall right away and end up with their one true love, they are the lucky ones.
Most lonely girls reaches that one stage that feels like forever, that one stage where they feel like they will never make it out of there and they realise then that maybe they should've been more realistic with themselves.
It's the stage when the one person that used to make them happy disappoints them, when their whole world falls apart and not even their best friends can make it all right. It's when it feels like there's this horrible pain in their hearts that won't go away and that's not even the worst thing. The worst thing is when they end up hating themselves because of the situation, looking down on themselves and wishing that they were not such a bad person. They blame themselves and crawl into their little shells because suddenly that's where they feel the safest.
What lonely girls who have fallen in love and had their heart broken don't realise is that they are not bad people at all, no matter the cause of the break up. They don't realise that if it happened, it's probably because they deserved way better and the universe just wanted to have it that way. Even more, blaming themselves makes them more losers because it makes them seem weak when really they tough as hell.
To my lonely girls who fell in love and had their hearts broken, remember how they say if it's meant to be, it will be. Seriously, a couple of years from now you will run into the same person's arms again because somehow it was just part of the plan. Or you will find somebody that will treat you like a goddess and still mess with your head because nothing will ever be perfect.
Bottom line is, you will always be awesome. Don't let anybody ever make you feel less than that. You have a couple of failed relationships? So what? How long do toddlers learn before they can actually walk? You've had way more boyfriends than your friends? So what, what kind of friend would judge you for that anyway? You haven't had a boyfriend at all? So what? Life doesn't revolve around dating. You not into boys? Being gay/bisexual has nothing to do with if you'll be successful or not.
The words,"When a lonely girl falls in love...", were the first words I typed without having any idea what the whole post would be... Hope it was a good one!
hearts, Queen
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